Feeling of Wander

It’s true
That when you set out
With no objective
You quickly get one

It strikes you like
The sun strikes your face
At a magnified degree
To wake you up

On certain mornings

You step out and breathe the air
And suddenly you’re not without care
But you can do as you
So desire

Friends down the block
In parts you wouldn’t
Be able to safely walk
Off of Del Rosa

Home by another name

Church Street and Buckeye
In the shadow of an arrowhead

It’s pointing you to
The next graspable goal:


With your own place to make
Fit into the endless landscape

You can rocket down Boulder
In an S2000

Blockbusters at the cinema
Breaking up fights
Billowing vape
Blasting miles at a time

You can wake up and look out

At the entire valley
From a mansion’s balcony

Citrus Plaza, Redlands
Loma Linda foothills
Like the foothills of
East Highland

Where smog drifts in the air
Tying tongues in limestone
And burning lungs
With runes and tomes

When I cough I remember
This is where I’m from

The land of oranges
Of dry, hot air
Saturated only with
Broken glass and exhaust

You can find palm trees
Close to the cities

But once you leave the roads
You’re just a stone’s throw
From finding out why
You woke up this time today


Wasting Away

My bedroom
Has clothes
Scattered all around

Empty glasses of
Old water ornament
My end table

My pillow’s full
Of dried tears and
Ugly expressions

Somewhere, buried, there’s
Two bags of junk food
Crumpled up and discarded

And when I wake up
Every morning I choke
Back bile

Not just for my own sake
For everyone else’s
I should smile

Wasting away
Not bathing
In sorrow

Hoping the memories
Will swarm and
Take me down
To drown

Pecking like a bird
At a nest to
Make it comfortable
I want all the twigs
And sticks familiar
To soothe my sleeping

All the while hoping
That time will
Move faster while I’m
Hopelessly distracted
But I know it’s
Nothing lasting

How could I ever
Stop this ending?
I thought of her
And that lovesome place,
Relaxed and floated
Into space.

Wasting away

Not catering
To tomorrow

Hoping those thoughts
Will drown
And that one day
I might smile