Storm and Stress – Journal 7/28/19

A blog only seems to be a blog if you decide to use it every once in a while. Let’s roll the reel!

Another wedding down, this time again in Tacoma, and this time with an A7rii at my disposal. So I also had FE lenses, and made the most use of the G 28-70 and 90mm macro from Sony. I resisted the urge to take a Helios with me but I think I can next time. I’m way more comfortable with its quirks than other lenses at the moment.

I made use of flash more effectively than ever before, as it was a daylight-tuned indoor lighting affair. Which is hell on white balancing but hey, we can tough through it. I finally finally got the replacement hot mirror filter for the A6300, so I delegated it to having the 50mm f/1.8 mounted all night. Only to realize that no lights in the building put off infrared wavelengths, but hey! I got some good bursts with it.

Oh yeah, that was one thing about the A7rii that really told me it wasn’t for me, the buffer times are killer. Even on a high-speed SD with an extra row of pins, the cycle times were abysmal in a fast-paced environment. That’s what I get for using a portraiture camera as a main carry during an event, I suppose. That’s why the A9 exists.

That very week I was able to use the A7rii for a studio portraiture shoot, and that’s where it really shined. As I’m dipping my toes into portrait shooting, I’m realizing that those kinds of camera bodies are a little much for me and too much con for their megapixel pro.

I recently got hands-on with the Fujifilm GFX100, too, that 102 megapixel monster. It shows an unfortunate amount of detail, but in contrast to the A7rii, it can burst 5fps. BUUUUT the buffer on it is even longer after stressing out the sensor and processor that much. I have never shot with medium format, period. So this was a wicked opportunity to test the current hypercar-equivalent.

Fujifilm, when it comes to cameras, seems to really be vested in photography that simulates the film look, but having ALSO recently gotten hands on with some of the latest Leica stuff, I can say with confidence that Fujifilm is getting away from the physical design quirks in their higher level bodies that Leica is staying true to.

During the presentation for how to use the GFX, they went hard on describing the technical, Apple-like qualities they’ve infused their product with and why that makes it so much better than anything else before it. It’s almost like they don’t want people to know that the Phase One cameras exist, and outclass it if compared spec-to-spec.

Their whole point seems to be making the camera feel nice to use, but god damn did those Leicas feel so much better to shoot with.

Shooting with a Leica M feels way more satisfying than shooting with the GFX100, personally. The GFX100 just isn’t for me, and I knew that going in, but even having felt the resolving power of 102 megapixels, I’m honestly not vexed.

My perfect medium format mirrorless would also be a digital rangefinder, probably capped at 40 megapixels, and it would be made by Leica. But that would probably cost more than a GFX100 and that’s where Fuji gets ya.

Which is fine! Becauuuuseeee…

After 7 months of fighting for it, I finally earned my upgrade, the Sony A7iii has joined my arsenal.

I’ve only had it for a week, but comparing it to the A7rii and the Fujifilm, I think I made the right choice by getting the base A7iii and not going for another build/manufacturer at this time. Who knows what weird things I’ll add onto this one, anyways.

And the names have been swapped! The A6300 is now Drang, and the A7iii is now Sturm. A bit pedantic, but important to me!

So far the greatest parts of the A7iii are the IBIS, the dual card slots, and the eye-tracking. I haven’t even bothered with the touch screen, and I’ve actually turned it off because the joystick feels so much better to use.

With the stock 28-70mm f/3.5-5.6 I’ve been able to do just fine in pretty much every environment because the ISO grain on the A7iii handles itself EXTREMELY well. Incredible, coming from the A6300 (which I know had its share of heating issues).

Right! That’s where I’m at right now. Next is to actually use what I have in a field someplace. Fire investigation photography is alluring for my infrared camera, but I’m looking at more practical options for my visible light photography first. Let’s get crazy, but in a moment.

More weddings, more studios, more portraits. Onwards we go.

The city is moving, but things are changing.

Consume reality!

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Aerochrome, Pronto – Journal 3/17/18

This one’s a long time coming.

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Where to start, where to start?

It’s been a while. Last journal was actually pumped out back in November. That was before Nadine was back from Jordan and before more stuff got so fucked up. Fucked up does not equal bad things. Fucked up can mean the end of one thing and the beginning of another. It’s been five months since I’ve been able to speak my mind out here on Radio Reality City, so let’s take it from the top.

Further Radio Reality City canon is being refined, so the two of you who are actually sticking around for the short stories and the lore can rest assured that there is more in development every day. Honestly, it’s only getting cooler by the second, but unfortunately the day where I can share it is a far ways off.

Tonight I’m being reminded that Olympia was a long time ago, and my creative bursts since then have changed their manifestation.

If you’ve ever perused my archives here at RRC, you’ll notice that I commonly say I write to remember. Well, I write to preserve. I write to preserve times and places. Things I couldn’t get a picture of, that’s how this all started. Stories of ideas that I never thought I’d be able to look at with my own two eyes. But it’s being built up now with an upward spiral of technical knowledge around cameras and how they work.

Since I’m getting better at photography, I’ve barely written a poem in five months. My general way of expressing myself hasn’t changed, but I am devoting much less time to sitting with my notepad. While that is a rather sad thing to think about, the one avenue of creativity pretty much all but shutting off, I feel as though I have a certain amount of mastery that makes me happy.

In December I was a featured poet in Tacoma, at Honey at Alma Mater. Familiar faces were there, Nadine was there. She was featured, too, and so begins the surreality of other creative options I can now set my sights on.

Since you last saw me I was just getting into drones, but that’s been put on the backburner to focus solely on photography. I’ve got another couple of shoots under my belt, and more lenses than I really know what to do with. I now have a Sony 50mm f/1.8 for the sake of simplicity. The Helios is gorgeous but it’s difficult to work with in practical situations.

So let’s talk gear, then. One of my recent gets was the Fotodiox PRONTO autofocusing adapter. It’s a motorized adapter for manual SLR lenses, natively a Leica M-mount to Sony E. It is also arguably a direct clone of the Techart Pro adapter, that was patented first and sold first. I would have gotten the Techart if it was $129 less expensive, to be more in competition with the Fotodiox. People are review-bombing the PRONTO and slagging it off for existing, but whatever. It does exactly what I wanted it to for less money, in a solid brass and aluminum construction. So with the PRONTO, an M42 to M-mount adapter, and my Helios 44-2, I now have autofocused Helios shots. Which is fucking insanity. I thought it was possible, but was actually surprised when I found out I could make it happen, so I did.

Nadine in autofocused Helios 44-2.

I can’t use my Helios 40-2 (although that is the eventual goal here) because it’s too heavy for the motors on the PRONTO, so I have to hold the Helios and loosely grip my camera to make it work. I’ve gotten in contact with the Smallrig people (they make my camera cage and a bunch of professional cinema level cages equipment) to see if they have a lens support and rail system to support a moving lens. I have yet to find a solution.

Also had to dremmel off the front couple of millimeters around the front of my cage to get the PRONTO to work, so now I’m rocking that Metro: Exodus look on my camera. Works well with my Jupiter-11.

Oh yeah, I have a slick Jupiter-11 135mm f/4 now, also in M42 mount. I can’t get enough of these KMZ lenses.

For the ‘radio’ part of Radio Reality City, my recent photography interests have been found in infrared light. I have been struck with inspiration by Richard Mosse’s ‘The Enclave’, where he and a crew of guys took rolls of Aerochrome 1443 film out to the Congo and filmed the civil war happening there. Aerochrome is responsible for wicked pink foliage and super blue hues in infrared light, and I’ve found a company that recently released a filter that’ll make Aerochrome happen in digital cameras. Trick is, you have to have a full spectrum camera, that is: a camera that can see from 300nm to 1200nm, from the tip of ultraviolet light all the way through near-infrared light.

Naturally, I have already signed myself up to open up the Sony A6300 of mine to full spectrum. I have to send it in to get it worked on here within the week. Then after that will come some appropriate filters for use in infrared photography. I’m psyched. Kolari Vision are the opticians who are going to work on my camera, and I highly recommend you give them a looking at if you’re interested in things UV and IR.

A close friend of mine has independently discovered the wonders of ultraviolet strobes in studio photography, so there might be something cool happening there. We shall see!

That’s all for photography stuff. On the backend I’ve been chipping away at updates for the site and uploading my creative works to the cloud so I have them everywhere.

It has been a demanding couple of months here, guys. I don’t know if anyone else saw the tweet a few weeks ago where 2019 feels like season four of 2016. I resonate with that to a degree. Things are just the same but brand new. Well, almost.

Moving out, new car, actual school, and other stuff set to happen this year.

If any of my readers find themselves in Seattle, you may have heard that the Art Institutes of Seattle shut down without much warning aside from an email this month. Students were notified about two weeks ago that they had a month to see if anyone was going to purchase the school. No one did. So they had to shut down early.

I was almost one of the 650 students scrambling to see. I was being called daily by admissions staff, wanting me to come to orientation in January and all that. When I backed out (because over 20 Art Institutes campuses closed last year alone, and because I was paying attention to my surroundings), I was told by my admissions handler that he’s only seen one or two people out of fifty come back the next year after withdrawing their application. Well. Look how that turned out.

It’s really a shame that there’s no longer anything to go back to. It’s even rumored that faculty and students looted the place. The company that owns the Art Institutes no longer cares about the non-profit nature of art schools, clearly. If you’re reading this and going to an Art Institutes campus, take a look around, okay? Make sure things are okay.

With that being said, try two at UWT has been sent out. This time before the deadline, and this time with a better thought out essay and major. Cybersecurity is going to be the name of the game for school for me. I think it’s fitting, and hey I do enjoy programming. I’d love to learn more.

I am beat, you guys. I haven’t done much writing like this in so long I can feel it weighing down on my getting out this journal.

I will say that I can’t wait to start posting Aerochrome Helios shots. And that I’m going to be going on a trip this summer, which will give me so much to think about and make out out of. 2019 is a slow burn. Little victories every month. Nothing massive quite yet, but that’s okay. I’m doing well so far.

Thank you guys for sticking around. If the site looks messed up right now, don’t worry about it. I’m trying to do more of a portfolio thing with this whole endeavor, but I really want to keep these more personal parts in. Are these things mutually exclusive? I don’t even know that yet.

Consume reality!

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A Brief History of Optical Formulas in the Early 20th Century and Review of the Helios 40-2 Lens

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Anyone diving through the nichiest camera lenses on the market is bound to have come across the Helios 44-2 at some point. Intrigued, they might find it and buy a version of it on eBay for $30 USD and receive it in the mail a month later from the Ukraine. Any further reading will reveal its initial posturing in the 1960’s, and a host of other M42 mount lenses able to purchase from the same anonymous seller. Not a whole lot outside of those modern details are available, however.

To be perfectly honest, it appears that even less is known about the 44-2’s younger brother, the Helios 40-2, and its history. Save for the fact that, like its older brother, it is a copy of the Carl Zeiss Biotar formula, which is mostly what the 44-2 is known for. The 44-2 is nearly ubiquitous, as it’s common, it’s cheap, and there are literally millions of them out there. What’s strange is that the actual history of why these lenses matter so much is lost or hitherto untranslated.

Carl Friedrich Gauss’s telescope lens assembly was the one that really opened the doors; the granddaddy of all modern lens designs known as the Gauss lens developed in the early 1800’s. For a century Gauss’s lens design was used in telescopes the world over, being used to take some of the first astrophotography through the barrel of telescopes at observatories, and eventually was modified and improved upon for the next 200 years (1). Through the late 1800’s, the Double Gauss lens design would be perfected in a raw, workable way. It took the original Gauss lens, and effectively multiplied the number of glass elements from a base 2 (in a Gauss lens) to a 4-element group before the end of the 1880’s. This 4-element formula was created to reduce chromatic aberrations over a large focal plane.

Chromatic aberration is a term for a color impurity that a lens might produce, as a result of a lens not accepting light rays properly. Poorly-built lenses with uneven glass surfaces relative to the next can amplify these impurities, so more complex systems of multiple lenses are slightly tougher to get working in the right order. While the effect of less impurity is immense, the task of lining up separate pieces of glass elements in, say, a 200mm telephoto lens can be even more immense.

The focal plane is the distance from a lens where all the rays of light coming through the glass line up as exact as they possibly can. This is measured normally as an f-number (otherwise known as aperture), where the lower the number, the thinner the focal plane (otherwise known as focus). When an f-number is low, the lens is considered wide open to light, and therefore the rays of light coming in would have to be at a certain position in order to be seen properly in the final exposure: they would have to be in focus. Any manual lens you can find in a store these days will allow you to control exactly where that focus, that focal plane, is. The tradeoff of this, is that when you have a maximum aperture of f/1.2, you can also accept much more light and blur the background more effectively. Therefore, these sub-f/2 lenses are quite a commodity in the photography world, as they can act in extremely low light situations and operate effectively when paired with the right camera. Focus and focal plane are also commonly called depth of field, to communicate the area of sharpness in the final exposure after the photo has been taken. Focus dictates where the focal plane is, and depth of field is the final product that results from tuning your focal plane and subjects.

Bokeh is a byproduct of having foreground subjects in focus; the blurry, swirly background of things out of focus that we’ll cover a bit later on.

Simply put, a 35mm f/1.2 lens will have a much sharper, shallower focus than a 35mm f/5.6. However, at f/5.6 on the same lens, more can be in focus, but you accept less light by closing the lens slightly. This is most easily seen on a manual/variable aperture lens where you can physically rotate the aperture blades in the lens and see it working.

What part of the Double Gauss design did in the process of reducing those aforementioned aberrations was introduce more elements and achieve a lower f-number, if designed properly.

In the 1840’s a man named Carl Zeiss was creating microscopes under his namesake company in Germany. Over the years the number of employees in his shop grew until the early 1880’s when his company became the entity we know now as Zeiss. An optical and medical technology corporation known for precision and accuracy in their products, at the time, their repertoire would grow considerably.

An employee at Carl Zeiss Jena, Paul Rudolph, is credited with developing the first lens that completely corrected for chromatic aberration and astigmatisms (when rays of light have different focal planes) in 1890: the Zeiss Protar lens. Impurities at the time were mostly a product of coating technology issues as well as the use of inferior glass composition. Up until the 1880’s it wasn’t known that aperture affected depth of field. And it wasn’t until the late 1880’s that a superior chemical formula for glass composition was discovered. Before 1890, nearly all lenses were created using soda lime glass, a rather primitive production process (melting the raw materials all together) and a molecular structure that had heavy optical impurities for photographic applications. You commonly find this kind of glass used for producing bottles or window panes. The advent of borosilicate barium oxide glass in the late 1880’s allowed for Rudolph to develop the Protar lens, cutting down the competition and setting up a chemical formula basis on which all modern lenses are now built upon.

If the Double-Gauss meniscus assembly was the shape and structure of the modern lens, the Protar formula was the chemical composition that rocketed the design to new heights.

Rudolph succeeded in creating the Zeiss Planar lens formula in 1896 (2). The Planar lens added 2 more elements, remaining symmetrical and giving faster apertures. Planar being the namesake for the use of two symmetrical flat glass elements; planes. This improvement manifested in the clarity of the image, and even less issues with astigmatisms. Lower dispersion meant less scattering of photons, which in turn meant less optical impurities. Zeiss was the premiere optics manufacturer in continental Europe and remains today to be among one of the best manufacturers of glass in the world. Silent films, large bellow-focus cameras, and moreover single-lens-reflex film cameras would see the use of lenses developed with Planar formulas for well into the 60’s.

After multiple attempts by Taylor-Hobson, an English optics manufacturer, to develop their own Planar type lens, they achieved the Lee Opic, with significant improvement over the planar formula. The objective of their project was to improve Zeiss’s Planar work in 1896 to further correct for chromatic aberration. Their work was ultimately commercially unsuccessful, and they attempted twice to improve the formula again, succeeding in releasing faster lenses under the ‘Speed Panchro’ and ‘Super Speed Panchro’ designs with as fast as an f/1.4 aperture (3). Even Kodak was trying to improve upon Taylor-Hobson’s designs and up the ante in the mid-1920’s camera market while Zeiss fell back onto another of Rudolph’s designs to use while they sorted out issues with the 6-element Planar design.

While having an inferior image quality, Paul Rudolph also developed the Tessar lens formula in 1902. It was a 4-element, asymmetrical group, that at the time capable of a maximum aperture of f/4.5; still leagues away from catching up with the Super Speed Panchro and losing the title of fastest lenses out there to Taylor-Hobson.

For the moment, the Planar lenses were left in the dust as far as the still photography market was concerned, remaining popular in cinema into the 1920’s. While still a very sharp lens design, they suffered flaring issues due to the convex nature of its outer glass elements and yet-undeveloped coating technology to deal with better dispersion and help with the flaring problems. Most would prefer using the Zeiss Tessar lenses, which were a newer, if slightly inferior, formula. After all, having so many pieces of glass between a source of light and a film strip will amplify any glare a few times over, if not dealt with properly. The Planar lenses drop out of favor for the next 30 years or so, after Taylor-Hobson’s dramatic improvements over the design. They would come back when lens coating technology took hold in the 1950’s, to finally solve their flaring issue, and allowed some of the fastest lenses in the world to be produced; the mythic Carl Zeiss Planar 50mm f/0.7, and for the medium format Hasselblad 2000 and 200 series, the Planar 110mm f/2 telephoto (4).

Before we move on to the advent of the Biotar line, it’s worth discussing the pedigree of Zeiss lenses in the mid-20th Century. The Zeiss Planar 50mm f/0.7 was developed for use by NASA in 1966. For NASA so the moon could be photographed in darkness, and Stanley Kubrick used them to shoot a scene of one of his films only lit by a candle (5). Zeiss kept one, NASA got six, and Kubrick got three. In both applications, it excelled. Only ten of the lenses were made, and if someone were interested in purchasing one, they would likely offer a fair price of $25,000,000 USD to start.

The Zeiss Biotar line had its rumblings in the early 1920’s while Taylor-Hobson was hard at work on their Panchro series. It was a revisiting to the original Double Gauss design by Zeiss’s optical engineers, at nearly the same time as another German lens manufacturer, Schneider. Schneider released their version two years before Zeiss struck, with their Xenon lens formula. Biotar, however, was developed independently, and both formulas arrived at the same conclusion. Instead of using a strictly symmetrical glass design, they determined that a 6-element lens with 3 wide outer elements could possibly fix their current issues with the Planar formula. In 1927, the Zeiss Biotar 50mm f/1.4 was developed for film cameras, and for still photography the Zeiss Biotar 58mm f/2 was released in 1936. It was the first widespread lens for 35mm single reflex cameras of the day, with primary benefits of the design being its weight and dramatic improvements over the Planar designs. It also showed that a 6-element lens was incredibly viable for the day. It was standard on multiple kits issued by Kine Exakta and Ikon, two of the first 35mm platforms (6). Users quickly noted its focus throw had the uncanny bokeh that is associated with those early designs, with the backgrounds at maximum aperture adopting a swirly, dream-like bokeh with an expectedly sharp depth of field in full focus.

Zeiss finally had a breakthrough in the competition with Taylor-Hobson with the 58mm f/2, and while Schneider lenses were a bit more popular overall, Zeiss was busy at work trying to introduce the Biotar improvements to the Planar formula. Before World War II breaks out on 1939, Zeiss also comes out with the Zeiss Biotar 75mm f/1.5. One of the fastest mid-telephoto lenses of its time.

It’s also worth noting that in the modern photography industry, Japan has a massive hold on the world market. Brands such as Canon, Nikon, Pentax, and Fujifilm all base out of the Pacific island nation. Those corporations had a market during this time, and their own technology rapidly accelerated after the 1930’s, but it wouldn’t be until after World War II that they would enter the global market.

Speaking of which, now with World War II now kicking up production all over Europe, a company in Russia had the distinct responsibility for military optical engineering and manufacturing under the same roof, as its tactical position near Moscow rendered it safer than other factories could ever be. This is where Helios is from, the Krasnogorsk Mechanical Works (KMZ) in Krasnogorsk, Russia (7). It exists today as a joint stock company, as it did back during the war, and is still responsible for the manufacturing of many steel and glass works.

In one of the most interesting moves the Soviets made during the war, as East Germany was occupied, they would steal the Biotar formula from a Zeiss factory. Taking it back home with them, the KMZ optical engineers found themselves with the latest in German optical advancements. One of the many gifts from the defense of their land.

The Biotar formula was a war prize.

While the KMZ developed all manner of scopes and recon equipment during conflict, when the war settled, they focused on cameras and their lens technology. Nikita Khrushchev at this time stressed production of consumer goods, so the KMZ had freedom to go after concept cameras, new lens designs, and creating their own versions of Lecia and Zeiss technologies for Russian citizens and beyond. These projects would find themselves under different names, but their production would all take place at the KMZ.

Zorki was one of these projects, being a copy of a Lecia rangefinder camera. After more research and development, the KMZ found itself being a titan of a plant, with their newfound projects flooding European markets. Zenitar (Zenit) cameras emerged from that 50’s and 60’s eras of looking for that hook in a civilian market (8). 1953 saw the first roll out of Zenit cameras, with sometime later the Jupiter lens designs. And in 1958, another one of their other European-based projects would finally be revealed to pair with the Zenit SLRs; the original Helios 44-2. The stolen Biotar formula, modified and put to work as an M42 mount lens.

From 1958 to 1999, the KMZ turned out untold amounts of the 44-2, earning it a place among the most mass-produced lenses in the world. This allowed it to dominate the marketplace for fast, inexpensive portrait lenses. Like its much older brother, the Zeiss Biotar 58mm f/2, the Helios 44-2 has a maximum aperture of f/2 and a focal length of 58mm. It was designed with a variable number of aperture blades and minimum apertures over time, but those two aspects above stay the same. One distinct practical difference between the two lenses was the characteristic softness of the Helios compared its much sharper Zeiss counterpart.

Bokeh is what the Helios 44-2 is known for these days, with the background developing an incredible swirl pattern, just enough to be tasteful and not enough to detract from the subject in the foreground. The bokeh and softness combined make photographs taken with it stick out considerably from a crowd, as the bokeh itself is easy to recognize.

While the Zeiss version was definitively sharper, the softness of the Helios was much preferred by users, escalating the dreamlike look exponentially while retaining great image quality. This is not to say the Helios is a flawless lens. Chromatic aberration is in spades, with color fringing quite noticeable at maximum aperture, and the focus was incredibly blurry outside of center metering. These two flaws combined may not have been terribly noticeable on black and white film, but on color the advantage was on Zeiss’s older Biotar lens.

Still, Zeiss had moved on from the Biotar formula by the time the Helios 44-2 was being produced, now focusing on the undertakings related to improving their older Planar formula and bringing it back to the stills market. Zeiss was also trying new designs like convex outer elements and telephoto zoom designs. So, if you had an SLR in the 60’s and were just looking for a lens to throw on it, the advantage was in KMZ’s favor.

That is the story of how Helios came to find a place in such a competitive time for the optics industry. By copying and modifying an existing lens design, they had arguably improved the Zeiss Biotar design, but laterally and in a linear fashion. It’s the same idea, not better or worse, but a different flavor of that original design, still standing 70 years later. So common that it’s even a good manual-focus alternative to many of the fast autofocus 50mm lenses out there today.

Given all that, what about the Helios 40-2? After all, that’s how we started this journey.

When Zeiss released the 75mm f/1.5 lens in 1939, they gave KMZ another European project to emulate and put a spin on, and that’s exactly what the Russians did.

In 1969, to add to their portfolio after multiple Jupiter lenses (based on the Planar design) and the success of the Helios 44-2 just a decade earlier, the Helios 40-2 was released. It surpassed the Biotar 75mm and went directly to a longer focal length of 85mm. The 40-2 was just as fast, being a maximum aperture of f/1.5. It was similar in most ways, except for a noticeable few that, like the 44-2 compared to the Biotar 58mm, modified an original design without positive or negative effects, with perhaps the most interesting note on its design is that instead of using their stolen Biotar formula, the 40-2 resulted from reverse-engineering the modifications to the original Planar formula developed by Rudolph (8). It was a Soviet Biotar, with the optical engineers of KMZ rebuilding the Biotar formula from the ground up, starting with the Planar formula. So really, the 40-2 is a KMZ retelling of the evolution of the Planar lens formula, not a true Biotar copy like the 44-2 is.

Considered the whole time, however, was the dual use of their optical products. Having a hand in military optics before, the Helios 40-2 was also positioned for use in oscilloscopes. Some have pointed to the KMZ’s dual-use manufacturing considerations as the reason for many flaws present in their lens designs, but I digress.

With the advent of their own true design, more effects were seen: soft vignetting, an extremely sharp depth of field that could make focusing difficult at times, a heavy weight, and even more pronounced bokeh than the 44-2. Any or all of these can be taken as a flaw, depending on your stance when it comes to the Helios lenses. In practicality, the user must be a bit more creative with their compositions, as the lens itself does not fare too well being at maximum aperture.

Due to the prevalence of the 44-2 and other mid-telephoto portrait lenses (most notably in the cheaper Jupiter line), the 40-2 didn’t do as well in a saturated market. Production of these lenses continued, enjoying little commercial success, but it wasn’t the beast from the east that the 44-2 was, nor the direct Zeiss copy the Jupiter 9 lens was. The Jupiter 9 and Helios 44-2 make the pair of the 60’s for Soviet camera enthusiasts (9).

You can find the 58mm f/2 Helios 44-2 out and about in the world, with upwards of eight million in production out there and Zenitar putting them in reproduction. It is the clear winner when it comes to the mid-century lens race. As a result, the 40-2 is much rarer to come across in the wild, and although its effects are more pronounced, it is unwieldy to use outside of a controlled studio environment.

I should clarify, not much information is known about these lenses in English, as many of the sources for which I’ve gathered information about the KMZ and Helios line are from Russian articles, archives, and community blogs (10). That’s for the history, and though we’ve discussed the 44-2, what about the 40-2 in use?

Zenit launched a reproduction of the Helios 40-2 out of the KMZ in 2015, and so for an import fee and around $500 USD, you can get a modern version of the original Russo-Biotar bokeh monster.

Helios 40-2 mounted on an A7ii.

I was able to order mine directly from Zenitar, and with it came a wonderful little box, a manual for use, and a bag with a strap that held the lens. I initially ordered an EF mount version but wanted to get an M42 version, so I could use my existing adapter that I have for my Helios 44-2 to my e-mount Sony Alpha 6300. The return was easy and processed almost immediately, and I had the M42 version in my hands less than a week later, ready to use. No qualms there. I should add that I also got a protection plan on the lens, just for safe keeping.

Much of it is the same as it was when it released, with only some aperture blade difference and updated coatings appearing on the 2015 version. The weight, the focus ring, aperture ring, and overall construction are the same as they were was 50 years ago.

I can tell the difference between the 40-2 and the 44-2 immediately because of the distinct effects of each, with the 40-2 of course making itself preset in the enhanced effects of the 44-2.

Cosmetically, the 40-2 is really strange-looking for a prime lens. To have the wider maximum aperture, the center of the barrel bulges considerably to make way for the aperture blades on the inside. It is quite long, and the front glass element is sunk into the metal to act as a small lens hood, similarly to the 44-2’s deep front element.

Since I mentioned the protection plan I purchased for it, it’s worth mentioning one moment where I almost used it in the two months I’ve owned it so far. To cut a moderately lengthy story short, it was pretty much hurled at a doorframe as hard as someone could force it with the palm of their hand. I could see exactly where it hit the doorframe: a bit of missing paint from the aperture ring. No other damage occurred. The 40-2 is a leviathan construct.

It is a heavy lens, weighing more than the body of my camera itself. Thankfully, the e-mount threads are hardy enough to handle the weight, and I often use a Peak Design camera clip to mount my camera on my belt when not in use. Even walking around all day in Seattle and Olympia with it, I didn’t fatigue from its weight in any way. I would say it’s pleasant to hold. It can take quite the hit because it’s built like a tank, and coupled with the Smallrig cage for my 6300, they make a fun pair to use.

The focus throw is the first thing I’ve seen criticized by others, as turning the focus ring from one meter to infinity takes three quarter turns of the left hand. It is not for shooting fast, it is for shooting with a very crisp depth of field with a very fast aperture. That doesn’t mean it is physically quick to set up an image to expose whatsoever. While I can easily walk on the street and take shots while moving with a Sony 18-135 OSS lens; the Helios 40-2 is much tougher to use in this application, for instance.

With this, we turn to the aperture locking ring, which is an interesting choice to keep intact on a modern version of the lens. If you wanted to shoot at, say, f/5.6, you would have an aperture ring to turn which would open and close the aperture blades mechanically. On the Helios 40-2 (like the 44-2), there also exists an aperture lock, where you have a variable ring from maximum aperture to minimum aperture that locks the aperture ring from going any further than a set minimum aperture. This exists so that if you needed to focus and shoot a photo in a lower aperture than f/1.5, you could lock the aperture ring at your desired shooting aperture, open to maximum to get focus, and then close it down to your set aperture once you’ve achieved focus. This was a quirk of manual focus SLRs, as the only way to get a good view of what you were shooting at was with a wide-open lens.

This is a very old school method of shooting, and like focusing already, means that taking shots with the 40-2 takes a considerable amount of time. Even on my A6300, with focus peaking, I notice the 40-2 being very temperamental with its depth of field. As with other fast lenses the extremely shallow depth of field, this thing can be tough to get focus. Because of this, I tend to shoot with my aperture lock at f/2.8.  

Speaking of focus, the Helios 40-2 has an insanely center-weighted focus. Outside of a circular zone in center frame, everything else drops out of focus drops off quickly when you’re shooting close to maximum aperture. I find aperture does best for overall focus above f/4.

Color is fantastic, with some very vivid color and juxtaposed muted contrast. This lens is more niche than anything else I’ve ever had my hands on. You can understand how this is made for portrait photography when you get it in your hands. The best photos I’ve gotten using the lens have been when I frame the subject like I’m taking a human portrait, so street photography with this lens devolves into architectural/environmental portraiture. Landscapes are bleak without a subject to center, but people are intensely easy to photograph with this lens.

This was the point that I stopped using the 40-2 on a crop sensor camera body.

I’ve had the pleasure of swapping it from my 1.5x crop ASP-C sensor Sony Alpha 6300 and seeing what it does on an Alpha 7 Mk. 2, a 35mm full-frame sensor. The good parts about the 40-2 shine, then, with the bokeh in all its glory and color quality becoming even better on a more adept image sensor. If you can help it, I would highly recommend pairing this lens to a full-frame sensor, as that’s what it’s designed for.

After writing the previous sections, I have since purchased an M42 to E-mount speedbooster, to bend back the light rays to be used on my crop sensor 6300. As my adapter now readily makes the 40-2 an APS-C lens and performs exactly like it was mounted on the A7ii. This has produced incredible results, and now with the 40-2 acting like it was designed to I feel so much better about including it in my kit.

To close, the Helios 40-2 is the byproduct of a war, on top of research of the early 1900’s best optical technicians. Somewhat forgotten, you would normally come across this lens being described with the 44-2 in relation to the Biotar design, but really all the lens formula does is achieve this uncanny bokeh. That’s what the Helios 40-2 is best at. It is not easy to get there, however. You get this lens, expect a fight, and the image is your payoff for winning.

In short, I love this thing. I consider it my showstopper, and it’s always in my kit whenever I’m out and about. It takes a lot of getting used to, don’t get me wrong, but once you do, the Helios 40-2 is a one-of-a-kind asset to have along for the strange situations it can open itself up to capture. It’s not the best for every situation, and indeed there are average environments where it struggles, and in a twist of fate, that’s part of the charm. The fact that the 40-2 is such a beast to work with makes the shots you do get that much more artful, and that much more worth it. You can get shots no one else can, in a way no one else can.

What sets apart the Helios 40-2 from any other lens is the unique, identifiable signature of its use. The bokeh, the handling, and its history all add up to what is truly an art. It will not be kind to you if you do not wise up to how to handle it best, for there is a definitive way to use it. I daresay it is like the

It’s going to be my favorite piece of glass for a very, very long time.


(1) Kingslake, Rudolf (1989). A History of the Photographic Lens. Boston: Academic Press. ISBN 978-0124086401, pp. 117–118.

(2) US Patent 583,336, Paul Rudolph, “Objective Glass”, issued May 25, 1897.

(3) The Taylor Hobson Story on Taylor Hobson official website Archived 12 October 2013 at the Wayback Machine.

(4) U.S. Patent 2,019,985 issued Dec 26, 1930.

(5) Dr. J. Kämmerer “When is it advisable to improve the quality of camera lenses?” Excerpt from a lecture given during the Optics & Photography Symposium, Les Baux, 1979″ (PDF). Archived from the original (PDF) on 2015-04-02. Retrieved 12/10/2018.

(6) Herbert Keppler, “Inside Straight: Optical Miracle: The amazing story of the Biotar,” pp. 32–33. Popular Photography & Imaging, Volume 71 Number 5; May 2007. ISSN 1542-0337.

(7) Nogin P.A. “Photographic lens” Moscow, 1961.

(8) “GOI: LENS Catalog 1970. Part 1” Yakovlev A. f., D. Volosov.

 (9) V. A. Panov. “The Handbook of the Designer of Optical-Mechanical Instruments”, ed. 3, Leningrad, 1980.

(10) Helios 40-2 85/1.5: “Questions of ergonomics, operation and maintenance.”

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Rusinov M.M. “Technical Optics”, Leningrad, 1979.

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Lishnevskaya, E.B. Album “Photographic and projection lenses developed at GOI”, L., GOI, 1963.

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Voices – Journal 11/19/18

This month has marked another good turning point in a couple of spheres for myself.

Photography: getting paid for it. Drones? Repaired and able to fly (after demonstrating what is undoubtedly amazing electrical engineering skills by having a battery explode in my hands). Website? On point, with a better layout and more effective front page. A copy of Microsoft Office so I can actually be productive on my machine? What does this mean exactly?

One of the things I’ve struggled to take care of is actually come up with a publication that’s somewhat all-encompassing of my work. Something for the drone side, the photography side, the poetry side, and even the short story side. Since I have an idea of where the Deneb Mythos are going and Reality City is alive on the site and in the airwaves, I can sit down and come up with a publication that at least covers my bases for the big three. Poetry, drones, and photography.

So that’s good. A step in the right direction. That, and another step has been made towards backing up RRC on as much as possible again. Now, this includes Betaflight, and all my drone flash memory files. As well as stuff from professional portraiture. Never before has Radio Reality City been known to have that in its portfolio, but it does now, and I have indeed gotten a couple of gigs here and there.

But there is one phenomenon still looming that I am quite afraid of. My poetry output has waned to the point that ‘one a day’ posting is no longer feasible for the long term. As you’ve likely noticed, I haven’t had a lot of stuff to put up in the name of photography either outside of recent shoots. I still don’t have a super well-defined release schedule for broader lengths of content overall. The ideal is to have a M-T-W-Th-F schedule of content centered around different aspects of Radio Reality City, my setup for it just isn’t concrete yet.

Unfortunately for the site, but fortunately for me, I’ve been able to do a lot day-to-day, so the times that come to pass for being able to focus on content here comes about just once or twice a week.

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Because stuff like this is what I’ve been up to! I’ve gotten much better at overall composition, direction, and editing of photos in the last few weeks. It’s been a while since October, but that’s okay. It’s happening now. I’m doing work!

I hope that’s enough for an update. If you happen to be a regular (or anyone, really), feel free to peruse the writing page and flick through some of those short stories. If you’re looking for some reading material, I am always looking for feedback on execution of these things. In what will hopefully be a slight petering out of content, I would love to see my short stories grow into a respectable side of Radio Reality City.

Thanks for tuning in, as always, and continue to consume reality!

Radio Reality City!



CQC – Journal 10/18/18

Yo, what’s up guys, it’s your boy Jake here with another Minecraft unboxing video. We’re going to be hoping for some SWEET EXOTIC SKINZ, blessed by papa Notch…

Fuck all that.

Hey guys, it’s me. The person that runs this website. I’m still alive! As if constant output didn’t outwardly display that fact, let me reassure you that stuff is still moving, but it’s all moving in such a weird, opaque way. Whatever. Thanks for sticking around through existential bouts of apathy as well as all the other stuff.

Before we move on, if you’d like to stay current with my everyday creative exploits and otherwise, I better spew some social media links out here, right? It’s a lot easier to post something to Instagram and Snapchat than it is to put up on the site.

You can get me on Snapchat at my user jakethomasshaw. That’s right, no identity thieves are going to misrepresent me anytime soon.

And speaking of the site in general, as of right now Radio Reality City is a little confused on what it wants to be. I’ve realized that there are a couple of major arms to this whole thing, but it is kraken-like in its ability to ensnare anything I do creatively. There’s not a lot of order outside of tabs and that kind of stuff. With older versions of PHP going out of business here really soon, I’m worried about what might break but ready to tackle it in anticipation of having a harder, better, faster, stronger understanding of where this is all going.

I’m a poetry-writing, photo-taking, drone-building thing. And right now those things are very discordant with one another. There hasn’t been harmony since drones joined the fray and gave me a third major way of expression. And now with the Sony and GoPro, I can add video to my list confidently. Among other things. But those three arms remain:




Even on the site right now they are not represented as well as I’d like, and I guess the only trouble I’m having creatively right now is a solution to this issue. I’ve tried to tackle it in the past, as recently as July and June with the major site overhauls, and while that made everything a little more aesthetically pleasing, it didn’t help my urge to organize further very much. So I suppose that’s the next big thing on my list.

The next big thing after that is a new drone frame, a Martian II or an Alien. Something superfast that can have a GoPro strapped to the top of it. That’s pretty fun.

But until site stuff changes, the currency of my situation is very much geared toward photography. With new lenses and new understandings, research on theory, and all that stuff, I am still (full disclosure) finding a hard time striking a balance with a full time job and photography as a hobby/side gig. No amount of gear will give me more time.

When classes at the Art Institute start, oh man, I’ll be doing photography all right, but not in ideal environments, I suppose. Well, I’m not sure yet actually.

Just a lot all over the place, but that’s normally the reality of my life.

Another full disclosure, is that I’ve been willfully putting a lot of energy into my job in order to be financially secured for such undertakings as the Art Institute. Such things are needed at this time to keep moving forward.

And within all this, I had to turn down that club I was doing video work for a couple of weeks. I showed a demo reel that may or may not ever be published now, and when I brought up the topic of compensation, they were hesitant to mention that most people who work at the club do it for exposure. Said the industry professional.

So I rapidly decided to never return, unfortunately. It was a good little reel, too. So at least I know I can do that now.

But hey, more reality checks for me to cash in when I need all that credit.

Thanks for sticking with reality, everyone. It can be rough, and sometimes it can be downright lackluster. If that’s the case, I do invite you to comment on what’s awful so I can take a look at it.

Consume reality!

Radio Reality City!

Mount Si Memories – Journal 9/20/18


One of my friends, Guy Larson, is in the midst of a cool little project with nude photography and creative censorship using lewd poetry and scripture. I, of course, offered my poetry to be used in this endeavor, and as such have been revamping some more organization on the back end.

Unfortunately, as a side effect of all this, anyone subscribed to my site for email updates just got bombed by like 19 erotic poems and I do apologize for that. That’s a lot of erotic poems to suddenly flood one’s inbox.

But because of this, I’ve ALSO learned that my site stopped pushing updates to Twitter, and therefore the Facebook page, at some point in mid-August. WHICH IS GREAT. That’s what everyone wants to hear when they’re trying to get some exposure, am I right?

Which is all fine and well. I haven’t been putting out a lot of content lately, but it still kind of sucks a lot. It’s just annoying to not have a lot of time to make the kinds of content I want to make. Poetry is running out, and I am quickly reaching the end of my rope. Only about 30 poems left to go after the omissions.

I hope to make up for this by introducing more and more video content. And graphic art stuff! I’m currently making a photography guide that goes over pretty much everything I know so far. It’s a lot of fun to put together, but time consuming. I work on it in the middle of waiting for videos to render.

In other news, I’ve finally done it. On September 18th, Mount Si became mine, finally overwriting the last of the symbols from my history with my own associations.

Three and a half hours up. One and a half down. 8 miles. One hour at the summit. And no, I didn’t climb haystack. I’m not quite into the idea yet, especially not carrying my Sony and wearing a bunch of gear. My whole body is still sore from the experience.

I have 40 minutes of 4k, 60fps GoPro footage that’s taken 9 hours to render, and it’s only at 75% done. So that’s good. My computer is in need of an upgrade at some point, that’s for damn sure.

And after that hike and miserable traffic-infested drive back, I went out to the Airport Tavern to take some more video and chat shit about being the house filmmaker. Which is exciting, but I arrived late and no one was in the right mind to talk about business stuff. That was a terrible oversight on my part, but I appreciated having time to nap after the hike.

That’s pretty much everything going on around here. Except the fact that I am going to be a student of Digital Film at the Art Institute of Seattle soon. Still prepping, so maybe not this quarter with everything else going on. But soon.

Thank you all for continuing to tune in. I realize that we’ve been on a bit of a downward spiral, but this is where it picks up: with accidental lewd poetry email bombs.

Consume reality!

Radio Reality City!

Happy Birthday – Journal 9/14/18

There are quite a lot of ways to go about this, but I figured this would be a good way to go.

This journal is dedicated to the love of my life, as she ages another year, and this time on the other side of the world. I figured it would be the best time to kind of describe this side of my life in a journal, and give a certain someone something to wake up to on their feed.


We met in a poetry class, and then again in international relations. It was almost serendipitous as to how I appeared, and she at the same time. A little over two years ago, now. Kinda crazy to think. Never speaking, really, until we did.

And after we really connected, much followed. In a lot of ways, she rescued me, and she’s constantly here to drive me to be the best that I can be, and achieve all that I can. Through creative passions, professional inclinations, hell, high water, calm, and all the chaos you can taste, we’ve been here for each other for what feels like a decade.

A very happy, very satisfying decade. Coffee dates, hiking, concerts, road trips, camping, movies, all kinds of stuff, and I can’t imagine even being alone while doing any of it. So much left on the docket, and it excites me to know that life is in the palm of my hand when it comes to making time.

I get someone to talk to pointless stuff about that still makes sense. Someone I get to hold hands with. Someone I find more enjoyment in being near than anything else. Being a poet only helps so far as I can describe how much she means to me. Which is further and further every day.

Nadine is the strongest thing I have ever encountered, and I am lucky to call myself hers with a tungsten ring on my right hand, and a copper one on hers.

Life isn’t always easy, however, and there’s much left of it to experience. Much more brooding, uncertain, and to be perfectly honest; utterly chaotic stuff is on the horizon, but the horizon is gentle and allows us to grow stronger before it arrives.

With this passing birthday, she’s across the world and I’m at home trying to make myself better every day so that when she comes back all the more experienced, we’ve grown together apart.

And you know, there’s so much left to the story. A lot untold already, and a lot yet to be seen, but that’s the gist of it: she’s the best thing that ever happened to me.

I’m thankful to belong to such a cool person.

She’s also started up her own website, and I dare say she’s more verbose and better at this whole thing than I am. So give her journals overseas a look here:

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So happy birthday, Nadine Nabass. You’re my favorite thing.

While it turns to autumn here, I’ll be thinking of you. And staring at my ring.

For those of you who are tuned in to Radio Reality City, I appreciate your looking at this journal! Not exactly regularly scheduled programming, I know, but when was the last time we had any of that? Quite a lot going on behind the scenes! I’ve said a lot here that I normally don’t verbalize on these journals.

Syncope – Journal 9/9/18

When I woke up yesterday morning, I couldn’t use my own strength to get out of bed, lest I let another muscle spasm in my back get worse and bring me right back down to earth. This two-hour long struggle culminated in me passing out due to the pain, which is a sensation I have never quite experienced before.

It felt like I lived another life for years, and woke up in someone else’s body, staring at my ceiling. A hot flash later, and some lightheadedness passing by, and I realized where I was again.

Hello from Radio Reality City! This is your host, Jake Thomas Shaw, back on the attack. As a wise man once said, “Attack your body before it attacks you!”

Boy, I can hardly remember the last time I took a crack at one of these journals. I guess that’s a good thing when you try to trend towards a more professional website. As included in the upgrades to our lovely .city address from which you now read this journal, I have also shelved away the entire section to below my About/Contact page. This isn’t to isolate it, by any means, and though a lot of people seem interested in my day to day, I’d rather my work be at the forefront. It’s still there, just takes a bit of digging.

So what’s new? I usually discuss projects or acquisitions, but I must say that the station is in a bit of a maintenance period at the moment. As a whole, production is on a big upswing, but the newer devices I’ve gotten my hands on still have some kinks to be ironed out. Helios lens needs some getting used to.

I put together my first drone build some weeks ago, was able to get it off the ground and dispatch radio telemetry to my goggles just fine, but it’s refusing to arm now. I’m in talks with BETAFPV to troubleshoot.

Putting it all together, soldering what needed it, and throwing the frame over the top is some of the most fun I’ve had on my own in a while.

The birth of the Reality City Moth.

Also part of the latest series of escapades is filming for a local club, the Airport Tavern. Some pretty good people out there, and maybe it’s not my scene, but man is it fun to go out and actually talk to people who’s entire lives are about music. It was weird to be able to throw out criticisms of old Simian Mobile Disco and Basement Jaxx, and get a response. Maybe not my scene. But maybe it is a little bit.

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The Airport Tavern is open on South Tacoma Way nights. Familiar to me.

I’ve made some contacts with the Art Institute of Seattle, and have been accepted into the Digital Film Bachelors program there, so that’s awesome.

As I type this now, the menu music for Destiny 2: Forsaken plays, and the rain outside my window increases in volume.

Sometimes, things seem to line up. No matter the cervical sprain, no matter the rejection, no matter the sundrance of what you thought was normal, there’s always a way.

I think a lot of people look at life like an algebraic equation; there’s a set of variables that need to be in the exact way in order for everything to work out. As if there’s only one right answer to living properly.

It would be highly disagreeable to think that at any given moment, you have only one path forward. There’s an infinite number of ways you could live, and live well, you just have to seek opportunities. They may not come crashing down at your feet, and in fact the door may be locked to you momentarily. Does this dissuade you from achieving? It shouldn’t.

That door should be looked at with contempt, and outright disgust for its intrusion and blockage of your path.

I talk a lot about what it takes to overcome obstacles in life. Not every time that I bring it up do I bring it up for whomever might be reading this. Sometimes, I need to remind myself that 4 years ago, I was alone, afraid, vulnerable, and had no idea what life I would ever lead. What aspirations I might someday have.

Was I ever afraid of becoming something I didn’t want to? Was I afraid of running out of time? Yes and yes, and to an extent, I still am.

But every day, I wake up, and make the dreams of an 8th grade me come true. Never in my wildest dreams could I hope to think I would have ever been through what I have and be right where I am now.

Tungsten promise ring on my finger, and a copper and amethyst one on hers.

As my love’s birthday approaches, I am reminded of a weird point in my life that signaled the end of the easy. This September 14th, she’s celebrating another year lived, and fought hard for. Another year down in the flight of years to climb on your way through memories and experience. We’re celebrating a lot together, but apart.

On September 14th, 2010, I was excited to be opening up my copy of Halo: Reach, not understanding exactly what any of it meant, but enjoying it all the same. The end of an era of sleepovers, of wishing to be a YouTube star, of wanting to make short films, of experimenting with things I had no business experimenting. The end of an era where I went to school with my best friend, and the end of an age of innocence before high school would make each of us try to find out who we are.

I don’t think I found out who I was until 2014.

Lo and behold, with the advent of new friends comes sleepovers, clubbing, studio photography, going out to Seattle to go to class, and so much more. The beginning of a new era.

The beginning of Year V of Radio Reality City.

My poetry is no longer cordoned off by era, or month, no it’s all out there on its page free and ready to be scrutinized by anyone who cares to take a magnifying glass to my words. Do it, I dare you, it’s fun for me.

This limbo has not come easy, but it will leave with grace. Helios lens on my hip. Drone in my pocket. I’m ready to go forth again.

Thank you for continuing to consume reality, from all corners of this plane, and from anywhere you might see me. I’m here, and this is my city.

Radio Reality City.

Drones of August – Journal 8/22/18

Almost a month since the last journal. At least these are getting slightly more predictable.

Well, having time to get my head on straight, a number of things have happened, as most things inevitably do when one gets idle.

I’m going to become the contracted videographer for a local EDM venue.

I have a wedding on my docket to shoot.

I’m going to be at the Art Institute of Seattle on Tuesday to see what they can do for me.

The pieces of a Tiny Whoop Beta65S arrive tomorrow, and I will be fully immersing myself in the FPV world. Thinking of calling it the Reality City Moth when it’s all done.

I am being allowed to dive further into my areas of specialty at work with drone stuff and photography in general, which has so far been a blast.

And I have surmounted a series of upgrades to improve the general nature of the main site. Not least of which includes a shop to buy poetry in as a direct download! 

Year Five did start with a bang after all. After all the buildup, all the planning, I thought I wouldn’t see the day where I could make present me proud enough to go on. But I have seen that day, finally.

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Lithium Autumn, which has been a constant fixation over the last year, is almost to a point where I can release it now, and this time it won’t be appearing on Amazon. It’ll show up right here in my shop.

Getting closer and closer to being sUAS certified, and am much enjoying the knowledge studying is giving me.

You may have noticed poetry take a significant slowdown this month, and that would be a side effect of a full-time work schedule as well as a general disinterest in updating, unfortunately. That’s my bad. I hope I made up for it with all the optimization and stuff. I want to make my site not only pretty but functional, as well. It’s been lacking up until a week ago.

Personal life has also dictated a lot of my time lately, for the better. I need to be present which is leaving me with not a lot of spare time for sitting down and having a good think. However, I’m lucky to find myself able to figure out how to navigate being busy. And I’m fucking loving it.

The race is back on, and the next video I publish on the site might just be of some FPV freestyling. Who knows?

The game is truly afoot this year, and all energies are making connections. I’m even in touch with Michael Anderson of Downtown FPV, who is a pilot for Tiny Whoop. So I’m in good hands if I need any help.

Thank you for your continued support, and if you’d like to pickup a collection of poetry from me, why not Abandon Ship?

Consume reality! Radio Reality City!

Mirrorless Cage – Journal 7/23/18

It’s been a while since I wrote the last journal. Almost 20 days or so, and the change of winds is palpable even on the website now for Year V’s ramp up. It’s creeping deep into my bones and moving my flesh above those.

Year V is upon us, and it feels like I’m walking through a door to a second chance at what the last five years have meant. Things are much different now. Down to the tiniest little detail. Doing new kinds of things. Listening to new types of stuff. Making new kinds of art.

All the while, life has to happen, so journals will shift in format slightly to compensate for the downtime in between them. I’m working full-time now, doing more when I go out, now, and writing so rarely that instead of an author of reality I’m now more of a photojournalist of reality. Doesn’t mean that poetry will ever stop. Just less of it these days as taking pictures of each experience dominates.

Myself, and something hilarious is apparently going on someplace.

Over the past few weeks, I’ve gone to see a production of the Rocky Horror Picture Show, shadowcast locally in Tacoma. My SO’s friend had a part in the shadow cast, and it was a pretty awesome experience all told. Go to one of those things if they happen near you.

Bellingham saw me walk among its cobbled roads again, having lunch at the Western Washington University lunch room. Woods Coffee called my name once more. And I got to walk around Fairhaven for the first time after hearing so much about it so long ago. Even though the Monarch went, it didn’t fly. Didn’t feel right, not this time. I have to be a proper tourist first, and make a special drone trip out next time I’m hitting some spots up near the border.

Nadine at Fairhaven.

I could no longer find use out of the 80D, and so I switched gears completely. I am now the proud owner of something more befitting the way I use it, the Sony Alpha 6300. Mirrorless all the way. And also 4k video doesn’t hurt much either. Traded in the box set for the 80D, got the 6300 the same day, and ordered myself a little camera cage for it from smallrig. I’m a little more comfortable using it for street photography than I was with the 80D, and I’m glad, because that was the whole damn point. The cage also gives it an exo-skeleton feel, as well as giving me the opportunity to customize a rig for it.

I gave my SO the SL1, my favorite 18-55 EF-S, and a 55-250 IS telephoto. Distancing myself from Canon suddenly just because Sony has the edge on the technology, and the DSLR world is headed for mirrorless technology. For me, it was a no-brainer. Especially after putting it through the wringer.


Year V will not start explosively. It will start, and it will simply begin as it means to go on.

With that in mind, here’s a poem I’ve written called “Uncaged”:

“What can a
Mirrorless cage
Hope to look out to
With a lens to cover
Wide angles
And telephoto distance
Guarded by a hood?


Inspired by this little camera I have now as my every day carry.


This might be the last journal you get from me until Year V. 7 or 8 days left to go. We can do it.

Consume reality!

Radio Reality City!