Stutz Squadron

You were always trying
To impress people
Or subtly calling for

In late senior year you shaved
Your head shameless
And got weirder than you
Had been before

Your on again/off again
Boyfriend deserted you
In an attempt to suck out the
Venom from between you two

You called yourself bisexual
To rebel against your parents
I assume, since I never saw you
With another girl

You’ve been desperate before
And tried to come onto me
But it didn’t happen and you
Moved on, though we were friends

I’ll still remember that one night
You sexted me with the outward
Intent of just needing to
“Break out”

You said the compliments I gave you
Gave you a lot of confidence
And I sincerely hoped that helped
You decide who you were

Always so angsty
You never seemed
To say “I’m me”
Like most high schoolers

You wanted to be what other people
Wanted you to be
And for a long time I was your
Confiding voice

You were a friend to me
So I was happy to be
There to talk to and have you
Figure yourself out through

Your religious parents
Kicked you out when they found out
That you called yourself

Perhaps when you just found out
Who you were
You were forced to move in
With relatives far away

I hope you’ve got it down
By now

Published by Jake Thomas Shaw

Concerned with memory, currency, and destiny, I strive to capture each one as they happen. Join me and consume reality! Radio Reality. City!

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