Ventricle Rupture

Ventricle Rupture

You may think that this’ll last a while
But I’m sorry to tell you the truth.
It’s not a thing that’s always good
To hear, but it’s what I have to do.

When you’re gone there won’t be anyone
To tell me that everything will be okay.
No one in my arms
Wondering if this is all real.

When you’re gone, we’ll try to make it work.
And all the while, every hour will hurt
Knowing you’re out there somewhere
Without me.

Did it even cross your mind
Knowing I’m here right now,
Or were you bored
And not satisfied with this now?

When it was us
Did you ever speak true,
Or was it all a face
That I’m just now looking through?

I’d want to say that you felt real,
But honeyed dreams don’t do
Any justice to the monuments
I made just for you.

Will you move
And forget all about me?
The me you fell in love with
The me I was when it was we?

I’m sorry, but we both know you’ll get bored.
If you aren’t already, what are you looking for?
Set to sail on your maiden voyage.
Somewhere else out there.
Somewhere out there
Without me.

Do you feel any different?
Does it feel any different
Being so far away?

Does it made you sad at all
Remembering the one
You chose to leave behind?

It’s a curse, it’s the worst
To say I had you,
Because in the end
You chose
To leave here.

Chose to break me
Chose to break the promises.
No more saturday nights
Or sunday mornings.
Only thinking of you
When nostalgia’s pouring.

What can I say, and when may I?
All it seems to do is push you away
If you hadn’t wanted to go by now
I’m sure the smiles I give you
Will give way into frowns.

So much to say
So little time,
Seven months to go
I act like it’s all nice and fine.

I wish I could say that the clock is quiet
But if I were to lie, I’d be out of mind.
I wish I weren’t in so much pain.
I wish there was just another way.

You can’t be convinced;
No reason to fight it.
Nothing worth staying for
Besides me, but I’m nothing more.

It’s my fault for thinking I really meant something,
For still thinking I mean something
As you board your ship
And I have to watch you sail away.

All I can say is I’m sorry I’m selfish,
For wanting to keep you here;
To make the future
You promised.

Hope you have fun.
I hope you forget all about me.
I don’t want to be a burden.
I just want you to thrive and be.

Published by Jake Thomas Shaw

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